August Tenth

it was like some terrible tailgate party
starved of laughter
all the bulbs held red for miles
like everybody wanted to tell me to stop
it was too late though
i was already here

the flares on the asphalt somehow made it worse
and the music didn't help
there was too much of it
too many tinted windows
and too many bored or frightened
or hateful faces grimaced by too many nightmares
in the windows that weren't

the uniforms were weary and lifting the body from the shoulder

it was covered
thank Providence, it was covered

even when the lights went out
and the smoke stopped grumbling
stopped telling me to stop

even when the blood started trickling
and then rushing again
it was still terrible
i was here
but i didn't get it
didn't know where

it was all just a big swing around the everything
like i was some particle
accelerating
no prayers other than a collision in a billion years
like the tailgate party was a seance
or a tarot reading

i was a wandering spectre who
couldn't find a hallowed smile
to lay down in
Resurrection Mary
with a car

but at some point
a friendly voice put a palm out flat
and flexed its fingers toward itself

i was alive
i circled the length of it
the clammy premonition defeated
i was here

and when i got out of the car
the entire street smelled like flowers


...
so i realize it's been a while - almost a month - since i last posted on here. i meant to put something up for my mom's birthday and mother's day. but i didn't. i'm a horrible son. i'll have those pieces up soon, i think.

i've been writing plenty and busy working on a bunch of other projects and undertakings (details on some of them will be forthcoming). i've also been sort of lazy, i guess. or maybe just afraid. or maybe some part of me wondered if anybody would miss my work. i'm not entirely sure.

this one is about driving into Los Angeles on my big move out here. that first night, there was a bad, fatal accident on the 10 and then i got way lost. thankfully the Little Joy was only a couple blocks from my new home and i got to drink a bunch of beer with my new roommates/good friends.

anyway, i plan/hope to get back to regular posting and that. cheers.
-andy